GOD

King of all abstracts, I must say.This is one concept that has been polymerised, transmorphed and even eroded ,time and again. I’ve always fallen short of the right questions when I seek the answer to its existence.What is God? How does God function? What are its characteristics? How to comprehend its actions? Is it to be feared or loved or understood, why? And the list goes on with a common intersection set that includes (why,what,how,when,where).

To begin with, why am I interested in God. It is a phenomena that seems to altercate a human’s thought and action. Those who believe, those who don’t and those who never bothered to inquire- constitute my sample space of evaluation. I like observing people esp. the way they function and present themselves. From my observation and interactions, I’ve inferred that religion is one of those attributes that seem to be an indicative of certain idiosyncrasies and a negation of some other. To understand the system, you need to understand the configuration and that drove me to GOD.

I’m an agnostic.I’m unsure, as I am still experimenting with this trickiest challenge ever posed.But I’m clear regarding my assumptions which are stated below:

GOD is not an authority that notes your good and bad  and sends you to heaven or hell based on your end-of-life report.

GOD does not ask you to showcase your monetary gains in the form of lavish decorations and glittery offerings.

GOD does not dwell in a cave on ice caps of mountains nor does it move like a white cloud across the grasslands.

GOD does not ask you to starve in its name.

GOD does not feed on animal sacrifices.

GOD does not live nor die.

GOD is impervious to flattery and is impartial.

GOD is definite.

This is my domain of constraints which I have assumed after catechizing various customs, beliefs and mythology.

I’ve gone through some really tough phases in life- Seeing someone dear wither with time, seeing someone succumb to their temptations, seeing someone torturing themselves out of hatred for the world, seeing someone fight against their fate by pleading mercy with GOD, so many countless occurences and so many insidious moments. Some of them moved ahead in the name of GOD and some remained where there with the hope of GOD.It makes me contemplate, sometimes confused, about the positive and negative impacts assosciated with the beliefs and disbeliefs in this domain.

First those who believe. They fought hard, really hard. Visited shrines, dumped exhorbitant amount on their earnings on rituals and sacrifices, followed strict discipline and felt guilty when they did something unconventional.They also prayed on their knees, offered the best materialistic stuff their economic status could afford, listened to bhajans on tapes and then went to suck bribe out of the next client that visited them.

There was another sect. Those who conversed with GOD everyday, carried on their responsibilities as GOD wished them to, said they loved GOD very much and then cried themselves to bed because they weren’t asked out by the most appealing person of the opposite sex.

There may be many other combinations, but then as I don’t intend to write a thesis, I wish to simply restrain myself to merely quoting some of the cases that I found trivial. Because as Einstein said- “if something appears possible, its hopeless”.

And enter the punks. Shaggy low waists, with the f word alternating with every word of their sentence, going astray in search of ‘happiness’. These guys don’t give damn about this entity called GOD. Now, some of them are hard nuts while some are unclear. These are kind of practical but immature at times.But then , they seem to succumb more to frustration when compared to their counterparts who seek consolation in GOD. These people believe in themselves and set out to achieve their dreams.But when they fail, when they surrender their rationale, when they sacrifice their pleasures..only to be laughed at by their fate, they fall depressed, madly and deeply.It is at this crisis that I’ve seen that their GOD- believing counterparts rose out easily, because they were led by the belief that GOD always does something for a reason. Or is it a smoke screen for complacence?Silence.

What business does this GOD have with people? People say it does something to you so that you give something to its world. Trading eh?Some say its not business but love. Love huh?Some ask me back if axioms can be proved in Mathematics?Logic uh? I get myriad responses but no definite answer to the belief that’s been surviving the ebb of time and been taken for granted.

If its trading, what does it have to take from a crippled person who can’t eat a square meals for many days and starves to death?If its love, why are there people being subjugated and why are the dishonest ruling the roost nowadays? If you say mathematics, then I’d ask what is the calculus associated with this function-range , domain, its continuity and differentiabilty and all that the package can include.Most of the times I realised, that you reach a block which becomes insurmountable.

For now, It just dawned on me that this post is never going to end.Because if it did, then it would be worth my life , the struggle I am undergoing to answer it.